welll!!!!NIGHTHAWK WON!!!!hahaha!!!cool man!!!FIRST in cheer and SECOND in overall!!!!shuang!!!hahas okies i'm lyk late for this post for about one week=.=but it was still fresh in my memory!!!!

hmmm,exams are starting next week and surprisingly i'm not at all nervous!!!instead i realised i was more nervous in the previous common test...omg... guess i'm at least gonna flunk one subject this time=(

okies next thing,i think now its already forgotten...doesnt realli matters to me if u're paying attention to me or not anymore....no matter how much i used to try to get yr attention it is simple useless...perhaps giving it up now is not too late yet=)

hahas,fine thats bout all^^

**Jiayous for Mid-Year!!!!

hahas!this little boy here is from 2c!he's the proud mascot of NIGHTHAWK!!!!

ms NAt,azeezah and me!!!hahas!!!nighthawks!!!

Dont you find that we look kinda alike???hahas mayb we're twins in our past life^^

argh!!!was realli pissed for lyk mayb half an hour loh....cant believe u actually said that=(
thats all i have to sae today....

why is it the fact that life is so unfair!!!!
i've lyk spent so much time and effort in this and wad did i get?!?!NOTHING!!!!
thn you???yr heart isnt even in here and u actually can acheive wad everybody is aiming for???dammit!!!should i juz simply give up and stop all the effort i'm putting in and juz leave it to all the others...from the past i've been trying to do my best and excel in it and i've gort nothing back...i seriously dun understand...what exactly is wrong wif me???why am i forever getting this kinda treatment???haiz...wadeva=.=
felt the unjustice in the world today and frustration faced by people...it seriously doesnt feel good!!!

HAHA!back to blogging again...

well,this march holiday was simply boring!!!monday and tuesday had oral and i totally flunked my chinese oral=.=haiz...thn we had training which caused a bad blister on my middle finger...feel so weird
the other days juz went pass as usual...had training on thursday and went for karaoke wif family in changi beach club on friday and it wad totally corrupted...shall not go further on bout friday's event...
well,had a serious breakdown on monday night after quarrelling wif my dad concerning tabletennis.cried all the way in the car from cineleisure back home.fortunately my eyes wun swell up or show any syptoms after crying or else it will be exposed whn i head for tabletennis in zhenghua CC...actually tt cry wasnt purely juz bout tabletennis but mayb also everything in my life so far...felt so much better after pouring it all out...haiz...shall blog till here byebye!

well,feel lyk blogging again^^

hmmm,COMMON TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!
unfortunately there's still orals tmr and tues=(
think i'm gonna do so badly for the common test this time round and perhaps there may even be some red marks in certain papers like SS,Geog and mayb even chinese!!!i'm such a failure in chinese i juz cant seem to get hold of it...haiz...

now its march holidays and it doesnt feel lyk an holiday!!!argh!oral on monday and tuesday and the prefect & ssc's camp from thurs to sat...dun really feel lyk going though but its compulsory^^so make the full use of it bah!!!hahas...

我觉得最近我真的开始喜欢上你了。虽然我觉得自己根本没有资格喜欢你但是爱，这个字的确是无法控制的。我终于放下了小学的那段美好的时光来到了现在这儿广大的中学里。我好希望你对我也有这样的感觉吧。可是，就算是一相情愿我也愿意。我是渴望你对我的那一点点的注意我就心满意足了。

i've recently realised that chinese words can really help to speak out my thoughts.unlike english,its like so formal and there isnt any words that i can use to describe my feelings or perhaps its b'cos i dun have enuf vocabs in vanessa's dictionary though..hahas! so well,thats about it.cya!

well,its been so longg since i've ever upload any post in this rotting blog.but i've realised that i've gort quite a lot to sae here...

1) Tabletennis
2) STUDIES!!!
3) erm...my life?!?!

hahas yeah somehow its just like this...though its like only a few but it seriously mean like the whole world to me currently...

First of all,tabletennis,we've officially lost to RV and Fuhua but at least we won to dunearn and newtown though there're the not very good ones...Unfortunately we were still unable to enter into the nationals and also our coach simply resigned like yesterday yesterday without informing us or maybe just me.perhaps he really given up hope on us already....for some reasons i dunno why i was kinda disappointed with the fact that he's seriously gone and i cant accept this fact...but its true. after all these very sad stuffs that happened i dunno why till now i've not shed a single tear even though i was almost breaking down but i didnt...mayb it wasnt that sad to me that i'll cry coz if one day i cry it either means that i'm totally hurt by someone or very very disappointed...mayb this aint that disappointing to me.As everybody always say,"the end is just the beginning".Hope this implies to us^^

Second thing,my studies!i've haven been doing well for practically all the subjects and i dunno y i seem to be distracted by something and even me myself dunno if its true...my social studies is driving me crazy!A maths is totally alienated from my mind!English is getting on my nerves!not even to mention chinese=.=Common test is nearing and i've yet to start my revision...WHAT IS GOING ON IN ME?!?!nothing seems to be going right....going to school nowadays is like the first thing in my mind that i dread the most.

ok last of all,my life.Well,there's this particular feeling in me that's making me feel so contradicted with myself now and then.sometimes its lyk "wow i cant believe that this is happening" and sometimes i'm lyk "can you stop giving me false hope?"...i dunno since when this started and it simply just cant end!its very torturing for me to feel like this its been lyk so longg since i've gort this kinda feeling after that time...i totally hope that this is happening and i dun actually feel how i think i feel lyk now.please tell me its not!!!

ok,listen.i'm not trying to act emo or wadsoeva its just how i'm currently facing my life...its just getting worse!!!

Wow, you are Ginny Weasley!
You rarely need Polyjuice potion because you're usually happy just being you! While you might not make the biggest splash or cause drama, you slowly and steadily win over lots of people who think you're pretty darn wonderful. While you can be a little shy and self-conscious at times (especially around a crush), you're probably considered to be a BFF by more than just one person.

and wOw!!!hahas its kinda true though....=)

被爱伤害的我再也不可以相信爱了。。。

You must be lyk WOW to see me typing this emo type of chinese phrase right??hahas...of coz its not written by me but by a very poor thing china friend of mine....he's lyk so poor thing...ok this is how his story goes:::

He actually likes this particular china girl from his class,he eventually confessed to her and i dunno why he was like rejected but not rejected.He fell in love wif this gal bcoz they're in the same project work group and of coz he asked her to be wif him...guess wad the gal said???[its totallly ridiculous!she said if their project work succeeds then she'll agree to be wif him loh....UNBELIEVABLE right???so this friend of mine is lyk totally disappointed wif his used to be A* gurl.poor guy...

haiz!!!a year since i updated^^hehe....now sch reopen already so i'm having more and more homework and new info to record into my pea brain!!!awww.....totally not a gud thing=(

SEC 3 LYFE AINT GOOD!!!! I WAN SEC2!!

HAHAHA!!!!I'M BACK!



hmmm...the chalet still not bad lah...hahas actually quite fun though^^wif a few ppl oni bud there comes the fun!!=)

irika ryan junboon juinfai zhihui quanyi and najmah diyanah xianqin....oni all these ppl in the chalet loh...hahas and oni ryan junboon juinfai and zhihui stay over hehehe XP

bad thing is 2nd day kip raining loh sobs thn they watch this moV in the room that i almost sleep zzz....hahas quite fun lah thn we play dirty wif whip cream and cake and water in the room hahas in the end of coz have to clear lohs thn afterthat we went out of the chalet there and thn juz kip walking under the rain hahaha....getting ourselves wet coz we cant go wildwildwet alrdy...nothing much to say liao XP

hmm...so longg nvr post le thn now feel lyk saying a lot things=)

okies,first thing first...gort results back thn now busy deciding wad course shld i go=(something that i totally dun lyk....okies there is s3,s2,h2s1 and others that i not realli interested coz i wan go JC!!!mayb i will choose s3 first or s2 first thn h2s1 third bah!!!ahhh!!!!how?!?!?!scared go wrong class thn do very badly in that class thn also feel uncomfortable in the class!!!totally dun lyk new environment wif new frens to make and forget our old frens which i hope i wun and dun wish to....HAIZ....

next thing!yesterday was the most embarrassing moment of my whole life!!!argh...told out a whole god damn secret to the four of them=(hope they wun sae out bah....anywayz its juz .....<3 bullies="Pthn">.< not fair=(

woah...think this is my longest post eva=Dbut anywayz its juz for myself to read though...hehe...ciao!

vannie^^