yo!!!

replies to tags::: cherie,hahas i not referring to you dun worry..actually i meant erm... tell you in sch bah,not convenient=)

yihan,hahas nvm lah next time still gort a lot more chance de...

berlyn,hahas i'm sure you wun ps me de!!! =) LOVE YA!!!

charmaine!!!hahaha!!!of course i rmb i still have you!!!!will definitely go out lyk mad cuzzies whn we both grow up and have our own freedom k?!?!hahas!!!

oOOo so cool!! cant believe i still have these awesome friends!!hahaha!!!!anyway i didnt noe why my mood lyk kinda down tt day lah...hahas ok now already!! as you guys noe, VANESSA'S A OPTIMISTIC GIRL!!!=D okies,i guess it's gort to do with my funny mum dad and bro!!! guess wad??todae i was being suan by my dad and mum in the restaurant for not knowing anything bout lighting=.= and my dad was lyk suan-ing the guy in the lighting shop for pretending to be like he knows everything under the sun and he was lyk praising himself for understanding more than that guy=.=and my mum!!was a total extra!!! she was lyk yeah loh yeah loh yeah i'm also better and her facial expression was extremely funny!!!me and my bro was laughing lyk mad in the restaurant and the table beside us was also kinda influence and laughing together as well!!!hahaha!!!okies thats all!!!

gonna show you guys my face-lifted laptop!!hahaha!!!

oh well!seriously irritated now!!
why does ppl always get stead now???and the thing is stead already thn dun care bout friends anymore???everytime there's a holiday or sch dismiss early or any occasions we used to gather and like at least meet up once in a while...but its like now everyone is busy going out with their steads and dun even bother anything???mayb thats wad sec life is supposed to be huh...whatever then..
okies today is teachers' day and unfortunately or shld i sae fortunately i didnt go out!!!managed to control myself and come back home pathetically and slack till now...hmmm sudd miss the times whn me cherie berlyn kaimi and weiting go home together after every celebration and how noisy we were on the way back..hmmm things realli changes though...thn it was kinda boring walking home today with azeezah..we both were lyk so sian diao can??
anyway,todae's celebration was so cool!!! ESPECIALLY lydia's dance!!!she's lyk so PRO!!!i still cant believe it till now..the whole stage was totally hers whn they were doing the dance!!me and lily were lyk totally stunt over all the moves lydia did can???3F is simply cool i guess hahas!!
hahas i'm seriously bored now but will be going to the IT show later with dad and bro..

although i dun have a realli fun life with frens lyk others now i'm happy with the family i'm having now...
nothing is perfect in life,you cant have both family and frens all be around you..you'll either have one...thats my philosophy i guess...=)

oh well!! i'm VERY satisfied with this blogskin and i guess i wont be changing it soon=)
hahas okies i did a veryy dumb thing yesterday and i'm finally admitting that i'm seriously dumb...ok,i have this 500 piece puzzle that my maid gave me last time and i was doing it with my cousin during the june holidays when she came over to my house for sleep over..and we finished it within two days...and you know wad?!?!
I RUIN IT WITHIN SECONDS YESTERDAY!!!
i went to buy the frame and i was lyk wondering how to transfer it over to the frame from the wooden part to the plastic part...and the puzzle was on the wooden part and i was lyk trying to transfer to the plastic part by turning it upside down=.=and OBVIOUSLY the puzzle was gone right?!??!
OH WELL!i gotta redo the whole thing from about 12 plus to 4 plus and went out and continued back on 8 plus and COMPLETED by 11.30pm!!hahas!!!not bad right???all by myself leh!!!and a little help from my dad and maid though...hehe=)
WILL POST THE FRAMED UP PUZZLE NEXT TIME!!!
I'M VERY PROUD OF MYSELF!!! =D

OMG!hahas!can u believe wad i'm watching now???...

POPEYE!!!

muahahaha!!

my dad just suscribe a new cable tv box so there's a month free with all the channels provided and i dunno how come i changed to this 'Boomerang' channel and its showing popeye..haha!and the thing is the cartoon's quality is lyk exactly the same as the old times whn we're watching=)

hmm suddenly feel so old after watching this!hahaha!

"i'm popeye the sailorman!!!" okies going sorta crazy now...=)

BYEBYE!

HELLO!
i guess my anger has subsided but i'm sure i wun ever forget this in my life=)
okies now i'm currently busy with two ongoing projects...the chinese useless one and the SS gort use one...hmm hopefully these two projects will go well bah=)
dunno wad to sae anymore...byebye!

hmmm...gonna have justa short post coz i'm supposed to sleep after i finished the CE collage thingy=.=so lame...
anywayz i didnt noe wads wrong with me after chinese period today,just felt lyk bursting out suddenly and so abruptly...anyway thanks for berenice and yihan's shoulder especially and comforts from azeezah merlin and emlia and angeline=)thanks guys! was fine very fast afterthat!!!no worries!Vanessa's a brave girl!!!hahaha!!!
well,reason for why i cry??many many reasons,,was actually a mixture of everything though...hahas=)
well,after this time i hope the next time i do this again will be a long time ahead!!!seriously dislike crying!!!
hahas!!! VANESSA CAN DO IT!!!!

oh well...my cousins left back to San Diego and life is back to normal now=(
currently preparing for CommonTest and think i'm coping well enough i guess...
seriously missing my cousins already though,missing Zoey's laughter and noisiness,missing JJ's chat wif me bout Ben10!!hahas!! but no worries!!! i bet i'm going over to their side during the december holidays!! heard the adults discussing in the living room yesterday at night and they were lyk so serious!! 75%!!! hahaha!!! cool!!!
by the way,i had a sleepover at my aunt's house last night wif my cousins=)was realli fun though we did nth but watch tv and had a mini camping at their room for lyk 15mins...and i was like wearing my aunt's pyjamas and home clothes coz she's in LA or mayb already in Canada wif her hubbie's side family=)
hoping to see my cousins soon in december and hope we're realli going over!!!
*Looking Forward*

okies updating now!!! hahas
hmmm...i realised recently i'm having some sorta or shld i sae a lot of mood swings in sch...reason?..i have no idea!mayb its pms which i so doesnt think it is or mayb i was realli unhappy over certain things or people.
haiz i dunno wad else to say already..oh yeah!! it's been like a month since my cousins were here and sad to say they're going back in like 2 days time..=( but actually i must admit i had lotsa fun with them during this period of time but i honestly didnt have much time to revise for CT..Although i can cope wif homework and so on but revision is like so out...so by the time they leave for San Diego on sunday i must stablise my mood and get ready for CT the week after next! All the best cuzzies!!! =D
okies besides not having enough time for CT revision,there's somemore irritating stuffs happening in sch...CCA not suspended[[but its not very crucial coz its oni lyk 2 trainings per week]],SS project!!!argh!!!,Chinese funny project as well and the weird CE collage..hahas well i BELIEVE i can do it!!!!yay!!!

JIAYOUS VANESSA!!!!

yo!!! updating again!!! hahaha!!!
recently nothing much up to but busy entertaining my cousins back from america=)
can sae that its either happy or sad thing lahh coz its EXTREMELY tiring!!!
okies so had a long day todae, boring lessons throughout the day and thn went to mac wif yihan azeezah cherie mandy and eekie for lunch and headed back to sch for training and sorta gort nagged by coach again so i decided to leave at around 530 instead of the previous 500...so obviously in the end gort scolded by my dad also...hahas but nvm! used to it! =P
thn went back home and showered and straight away went down for bbq! and played wif my hyper enthu cousins =) played soccer in the wet grass and i even took out my slippers!!! cant imagine i did that!!! hahas!! kinda fun and dirty!!!
everything was very fun so far but after tmr's expedition to palau ubin gotta seriously revise for Common Test already!!!lacking very far behind for revision already,,,so far i simply did nothing loh except a little physics...haiz..study for physics!!! byebye!!! wish me fun in palau ubin tmr!!!!

为什么我跟你每一次的沟通方式只有你在挖苦我？我的人格有那么烂吗？还是你以为自己在开玩笑，觉得很好笑？根本就不好笑好不好！自以为是！别以为我每次和你一起笑笑玩玩你就可以每次和他一起合伙挖苦我！偶尔所以下没关系但是好像我们的每个沟通都是你再说我，你有没有想过你自己可能也是这样呢？我真的不知道现在和你在一起的时候还可以说些什么了。。。

hahas okies yesterday had a FANTASTIC feast!!! there's lobster sashimi,sharkfin soup and a lame abalone mushroom=.= but was still nice!!!and we took lyk loads of pics in the toilet at One Degree 15 [[ clubhouse in sentosa ]]...okies shouldnt sae anymore show some pics!!!

i'm realli drinking champange okay!!!!

hahas one of the pics that i realli like!!!

don't i look like their mom?!?!

hahas blurred image but the little girl there is cute!!! [[ my cousin--Zoey ]]

i seriously think we look like a couple though =P

hahas i think this is the biggest family pic i've ever took!!! very cool!!!

haha! todae we went to parliament for SS =.=
ONE THING I'VE LEARNT TODAE!!!
TAMIL LANGUAGE!!!
hahaha!from 1 to 10 and i love you,i hate you and choa chu kang way!!!
although i think i already forgotten half of it... but nvm!after asking azeezah to remind me i can definitely get it back!!hahaha!i'm lyk so proud of myself!!!
okies,the parliament wasnt that fun though...its lyk exactly the same from wad i saw few years back whn i went wif my primary sch...hahas...
hmm...recently dun realli feel lyk blogging again i dunno why though i have a lot to sae...hahas! byebye!

YO! todae OBS tenzing!!! Although only 8 outta 15 ppl went but was still quite fun...
hancock rocks man!!! Will Smith rocks!!! simply love all his movies^^hahaha!
okies,the not that nice thing=.=my bowling sucks!was the last among the five of us loh...hmm according to my memory,qamarus was the highest loh!and thanks to joohou who won me by that last points=.=hahas..thn the rest i'll post tmr bah todae feel lyk sleeping already=P byebye!

左右为难。不知道现在该怎么办?!

SPEECHLESS.
DISAPPOINTED.
BEING ACCUSED.
IRRITATED.

that's all i can say bout everything that happened today...

hahahas!!!
did some test online today and guess wad???some answers are so true but some are lyk so ridiclous...i shall sae only some=)
okies the test asked me to arrange some animals according to my preference...so this is mine: tiger,horse,sheep,cow,pig... and guess wad??? it actually represents pride,family,love,career,money!!! i'm so pro...money is the last thing in my mind man!!!
hahas next is gonna be damn funny ok!!!
cute is my personality=.=
scary is the personality of my partner=)
disgusting is the personality of my enemy!!![[so true!]]
bitter is how i interpret sex=.=
peaceful is my life!!!
hahas i think only disgusting and peaceful sounds right to me=)))
okies that's all for today!!!
oh yeah!you guys shld go do this test too!!!
http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html

IRIKA AND ME!!!besties forever man!!!lOls

Me,SiangNing,Azeezah currently working for Thai Airlines!

Coffee?Tea?Or Meeee???lOls!

2F'07 rocks!!!!hahas=)

oh well,i didnt post for quite a long time though....

okies we had Cultural Fiesta Night in school on friday and after 3 years in Kranji,i realised CFN is actually what everybody calls "Racial Harmony Day" =.=

initially i thought it is a special event that only Kranji has...lOls...

hmm...guess wad?!?!? i wore fbt to sch on friday!!! it is SO not me and i was lyk discussing with azeezah how bitchy my back view looks lyk=P muahahaha!!!

but of course i'm not wearing fbt for the event that night,i juz wore class tee and fbt for dinner with berlyn and weiting to lot1 for dinner thn me and azeezah went to meet siangning and warah outside school before we go and change to our traditional costume...actually we're supposed to leave earlier and let berlyn and weiting wait for cherie coz she's late..but somehow another the two of them caught up wif us at the bustop and yeah u shld noe the reason why they managed to catch up wif us....and if i'm not wrong she was quite pissed wif us for that....but nvm!

okies the bad thing of that night now,i tore azeezah's mum kebaya's button!!!omgomgomg!!!that's why we saw a black cat whn we first entered to sch at bout 6 plus...hahas superstitious=)and i was lyk so sad bout it can...SORRY AZEEZAH AND HER MUM....BUT!my mum managed to sew it back!!!hope its ok...my clumsiness is really getting so serious now...haiz...juz standing up from the prade square i can actually tear the button thingy...=(mayb coz i was too excited to see my fren,irika bah...hehe..i really didnt expect to see irika there but during the performance i guess she's quite lonely coz her parents arent here and her sister nidda sit wif her class initially...hahas but thanks to me i went to accompany her wif azeezah later on whn i was getting really bored and eyes turning red coz i wanna sleep!!!

oh yeah and i also saw Jeanle and he was lyk seriously getting taller and also plump too=P pardon me...hehe...even irika said so...hahas...but still ok lah...overall the whole CFN was lyk so fun!!!i really had fun whn the three of us wore the same costume and we were lyk so paiseh whn walking around the sch...hahas...i felt lyk walking around and asking coffee or tea wif that costume on...

okies..another thing!!

recently i was lyk chatting wif Mr Pua and my primary sch junior Belle[[Jeanle's sister]] and mr pua is getting MARRIED in roughly a year time!!!i was lyk so stunt and at first i thought he's gonna marry to the girl he brought to the NDP and the picture i saw in the staff room last time when i was still in HongKah..BUT NO!!!!he's marrying to a new teacher in HongKah who just came lyk a year ago according to Belle...and i was lyk huh?!?! does it mean they only met lyk less than a year and they're getting married???is mr pua too desperate or he realli found his true love...lOls...anyways heard from irika that he told her that he'll invite the 6.1'05[[which is my class]] to his wedding and i really hope he will coz i'm lyk so excited to meet all my ex-classmates!!!hahas...we didnt organise a gathering last june loh..and nobody bothered to organise one...i guess i've gort a phobia from that failure chalet we had last december so i dun really dare to organise one again...lOls...

anyways...i'm lyk so scared i cant forget you..it's been lyk 3 years and recently i'm starting to think of you again and i feel that its so dumb...haiz...something must be wrong wif me...but nvm even if i'm thinking of you right now i'm forcing it to be at the back of my head...

okies that's bout it!!!byebye!!!

VERY FUNNY VIDEO!!!!MUST WATCH!!!

yo!!!!
i'm back to posting again!!!!
back from OBS[OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE/SCHOOL] and BATAM TRIP
damn fun!damn cool!TOTALLY amazing!!!
okies let me elaborate further on=D


first day i carried my heavy backpack to sch at SEVEN in the morning and headed to pungol jetty at bout 7 plus 8 thn by the time we reached OBS campsite 2 and dragged all those ice breaking games till bout lunch time...the whole day was lyk gone wif only two height activities and so on=.=

second day is lyk height elements if i'm not wrong coz i think i forgotten some partially...i climbed the log thingy wif yuting and i already lost my energy to climb the log coz we both were juz doing the belayer for two guys and our hands were already slipping off...i haven climb on the first log already cant do it liao...at least yuting still can go on the first on loh..SORRY YUTING!!!!
if i'm not wrong thats also the night that has a heavy storm and our tents are ruined!!!we nidda sleep in the multipurpose hall and that was the night that i gort damn loads of bites!!!argh!!!



Third day!trekking day!!!basically i was trekking wif angeline most of the time and i rmb she was lyk a physcologist,telling me to look up the sky and sae i can do it and sing my favourite song!!!
[[ pu gong yin de yue ding ]] i rmb ok?!?!just that i dunno wads the characters lyk so dunno if can search a not=Pactually i think we can reached the destination earlier de just because of someone...thn we nidda cook at night wif just that tiny little torchlight shinning around us and still had to suffer some commands from someone which almost the whole tenzing couldnt stand...argh!!!i think that night's dinner was the worst of all nights man!!!but was still kinda fun...
and at night we kena caught by din and another instructor for going to the jetty toilet...and it was lyk majority of the people who went to this toilet are kranjians and tenzings!!!!omgomgomg...we thought we were lyk so dead coz din sae he wanna hand in our names!!!ahh!!!but eventually he didnt though=Dyay!!!on our way back to our tents,kranjians were lyk sorta quite relax lah thn the zhonghua people are lyk so funny esp kenneth!!!he kept panicking and thinkin bout wad will happen and so on till hariz cant stand it either!!lOls...kenneth's such a joker^^

FOURTH DAY!!!!kayakin!!!!
first of all,i wanna tell everybody my kayak partner is shenghong!!!hahas the crapper of tenzing!!!anyways thanks for entertaining me in the beginning of kayaking=)and thanks for stoning nearing the end=.=hahas!actually nothing much to sae bout kayaking lah coz it was simply kayaking in the sea....OH YEAH!!!guess wad?!?! I URINE IN THE SEA!!!omg right???it was kinda disgusting but anyway,almost everybody did that=Pimagine how polluted will the sea be!hahas...actually kayaking out in the sea was quite scary though,coz we didnt noe wad to do sometimes when our kayak is outta control...luckily neither me or shenghong gort seasick,if we gort i dunno how're we gonna reach the destination...sad to sae,i didnt see jellyfish!!!i seriously wanted to see one though but didnt managed to=(overall it was quite fun kayaking lah and nice chatting wif shenghong too!!!stay in contact guys!!!

okies needless to say its the last day...and was kinda sad though....i didnt noe wad to sae on that day...i was lyk so tired but didnt realli wish to separate tenzing=(the time we spent together was realli memorable,realli hope we can meet up again or something^^kranji and zhonghua seriously rocks!!!unlike the noisyville secondary=P

once again,i'm gonna introduce my obs group to you!!
TENZING----Abidin[our instructor^^],Yuting,Yihan,Angeline,Lydia,Yujia,Jianyi,Elaine,Kamahrus[sorry i dunno how to spell your name..],Hariz,Shenghong,Kenneth,Winston,JooHou,Jiaqi and ME!!!
**i will remember you guys forever**

Next thing,i juz came back from batam yesterday.it was a two day one night trip so imagine how tired i can be having to go to batam the next morning after obs...hahas but was ok lah=)i can do it!!!the only problem i had was my suntan face=(it was seriously hurting my face and the itchy mosquito bites i gort on my legs and hands!!i simply brought a first aid kid to batam just in case i realli gort bitten again by these irritating mosquitoes^^hehe...sad to sae,i oni bought a bag and a tee there,didnt realli bought much coz i'm seriously tired=Pthis trip was simply a "sleeping trip" for me=)okies thats bout it!!!

P.S. MY FACE IS FINALLY TANNED NOW!!!LOVE IT!!!!

okies!!!
OBS starting tmr morning!!!
well,its lyk the first camp that i'm attending besides the sec1 camp and the beijing trip i went previously!!!SOOOooo excited!!!
packing all my stuffs all ready to set off^^
i wil not touch my laptop till the week after next coz i'll be heading for batam the next day immediately after obs and i bet i wun have the time or energry to come online though...
cya guys!!!
dun miss me!!!

UPDATED!!!!

after so much pushing by berlyn,i'm finally updating!!!but i dunno wad to sae though=P
haiz the guy is berlyn and weiting noe de lah lOls...
okies thats all!!!
*off for holiday*

I'M FINALLY UPDATING!!!

*looking at primary sch pics* i'm simply missing my primary sch times whn my class was particularly a mature p6 class though...=D times whn about 10 over ppl are playing cheat together after psle,talking bout ghost stories in chinese class and the funny form teacher of our p4 and p5 class,mr pua^^i juz love those days!!!

ok,exams are over!and i've gort my results back=.=wad do u think??? it was a total mess!!!
FAILING ENGLISH FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!! E8!!! 42%!!!
failing humanities is expected though...my family has nvr been gud at it since from my aunt's generation^^lOls
my other results aint as gud as i expected it to be as well!my sciences are in a mess!!i wanted at least an A for both physics and chemistry but in the end i gort B3 for both...awww...I DID STUDY ENUF OK!its juz tt i dunno why it went SO wrong during the paper...stop maglining me that i didnt study and did not put enuf effort into my studies!!!i'm juz now as good as my brother so juz stop comparing the both of us!!argh!
forget it!i must do well in the coming common test so that i wun be looked down by all of them!hmph!

now the fun thing!!!went to singapore zoo on saturday wif my cousin and two aunties!!it was lyk so cool!!!i love the WHITE TIGER!!!the tiger is lyk so shuai can=Dhahas...how i wish i can go inside and lyk touch it=)thn we went for the splash show and we were kinda late so me and my cousin went to sit at the splash zone and guess what?we gort splashed by the sea lion called Phil!!hahaha cute right?!?thn afterthat we went for karaoke and it was funny though,oni four of us singing continuously for 3 hours...quite weird but was kinda fun still!!!seriously hope i can go out more often wif them=)feels so comfy wif them...

[[last thing]]
i decided not to care bout u anymore coz i realised my heart is still wif him...no matter how long ago was it i juz simply cant forget it...i juz love the time we spent together in the past,you're the only one that cares about me and worries about me=)i hope i can see u again in my JC life...missing u SO much now...times whn we were more than friends～

okies thats bout it!byebye!!!
*wonder whn will be the next time i'll post*

welll!!!!NIGHTHAWK WON!!!!hahaha!!!cool man!!!FIRST in cheer and SECOND in overall!!!!shuang!!!hahas okies i'm lyk late for this post for about one week=.=but it was still fresh in my memory!!!!

hmmm,exams are starting next week and surprisingly i'm not at all nervous!!!instead i realised i was more nervous in the previous common test...omg... guess i'm at least gonna flunk one subject this time=(

okies next thing,i think now its already forgotten...doesnt realli matters to me if u're paying attention to me or not anymore....no matter how much i used to try to get yr attention it is simple useless...perhaps giving it up now is not too late yet=)

hahas,fine thats bout all^^

**Jiayous for Mid-Year!!!!

hahas!this little boy here is from 2c!he's the proud mascot of NIGHTHAWK!!!!

ms NAt,azeezah and me!!!hahas!!!nighthawks!!!

Dont you find that we look kinda alike???hahas mayb we're twins in our past life^^

argh!!!was realli pissed for lyk mayb half an hour loh....cant believe u actually said that=(
thats all i have to sae today....

why is it the fact that life is so unfair!!!!
i've lyk spent so much time and effort in this and wad did i get?!?!NOTHING!!!!
thn you???yr heart isnt even in here and u actually can acheive wad everybody is aiming for???dammit!!!should i juz simply give up and stop all the effort i'm putting in and juz leave it to all the others...from the past i've been trying to do my best and excel in it and i've gort nothing back...i seriously dun understand...what exactly is wrong wif me???why am i forever getting this kinda treatment???haiz...wadeva=.=
felt the unjustice in the world today and frustration faced by people...it seriously doesnt feel good!!!

HAHA!back to blogging again...

well,this march holiday was simply boring!!!monday and tuesday had oral and i totally flunked my chinese oral=.=haiz...thn we had training which caused a bad blister on my middle finger...feel so weird
the other days juz went pass as usual...had training on thursday and went for karaoke wif family in changi beach club on friday and it wad totally corrupted...shall not go further on bout friday's event...
well,had a serious breakdown on monday night after quarrelling wif my dad concerning tabletennis.cried all the way in the car from cineleisure back home.fortunately my eyes wun swell up or show any syptoms after crying or else it will be exposed whn i head for tabletennis in zhenghua CC...actually tt cry wasnt purely juz bout tabletennis but mayb also everything in my life so far...felt so much better after pouring it all out...haiz...shall blog till here byebye!

well,feel lyk blogging again^^

hmmm,COMMON TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!
unfortunately there's still orals tmr and tues=(
think i'm gonna do so badly for the common test this time round and perhaps there may even be some red marks in certain papers like SS,Geog and mayb even chinese!!!i'm such a failure in chinese i juz cant seem to get hold of it...haiz...

now its march holidays and it doesnt feel lyk an holiday!!!argh!oral on monday and tuesday and the prefect & ssc's camp from thurs to sat...dun really feel lyk going though but its compulsory^^so make the full use of it bah!!!hahas...

我觉得最近我真的开始喜欢上你了。虽然我觉得自己根本没有资格喜欢你但是爱，这个字的确是无法控制的。我终于放下了小学的那段美好的时光来到了现在这儿广大的中学里。我好希望你对我也有这样的感觉吧。可是，就算是一相情愿我也愿意。我是渴望你对我的那一点点的注意我就心满意足了。

i've recently realised that chinese words can really help to speak out my thoughts.unlike english,its like so formal and there isnt any words that i can use to describe my feelings or perhaps its b'cos i dun have enuf vocabs in vanessa's dictionary though..hahas! so well,thats about it.cya!

well,its been so longg since i've ever upload any post in this rotting blog.but i've realised that i've gort quite a lot to sae here...

1) Tabletennis
2) STUDIES!!!
3) erm...my life?!?!

hahas yeah somehow its just like this...though its like only a few but it seriously mean like the whole world to me currently...

First of all,tabletennis,we've officially lost to RV and Fuhua but at least we won to dunearn and newtown though there're the not very good ones...Unfortunately we were still unable to enter into the nationals and also our coach simply resigned like yesterday yesterday without informing us or maybe just me.perhaps he really given up hope on us already....for some reasons i dunno why i was kinda disappointed with the fact that he's seriously gone and i cant accept this fact...but its true. after all these very sad stuffs that happened i dunno why till now i've not shed a single tear even though i was almost breaking down but i didnt...mayb it wasnt that sad to me that i'll cry coz if one day i cry it either means that i'm totally hurt by someone or very very disappointed...mayb this aint that disappointing to me.As everybody always say,"the end is just the beginning".Hope this implies to us^^

Second thing,my studies!i've haven been doing well for practically all the subjects and i dunno y i seem to be distracted by something and even me myself dunno if its true...my social studies is driving me crazy!A maths is totally alienated from my mind!English is getting on my nerves!not even to mention chinese=.=Common test is nearing and i've yet to start my revision...WHAT IS GOING ON IN ME?!?!nothing seems to be going right....going to school nowadays is like the first thing in my mind that i dread the most.

ok last of all,my life.Well,there's this particular feeling in me that's making me feel so contradicted with myself now and then.sometimes its lyk "wow i cant believe that this is happening" and sometimes i'm lyk "can you stop giving me false hope?"...i dunno since when this started and it simply just cant end!its very torturing for me to feel like this its been lyk so longg since i've gort this kinda feeling after that time...i totally hope that this is happening and i dun actually feel how i think i feel lyk now.please tell me its not!!!

ok,listen.i'm not trying to act emo or wadsoeva its just how i'm currently facing my life...its just getting worse!!!

Wow, you are Ginny Weasley!
You rarely need Polyjuice potion because you're usually happy just being you! While you might not make the biggest splash or cause drama, you slowly and steadily win over lots of people who think you're pretty darn wonderful. While you can be a little shy and self-conscious at times (especially around a crush), you're probably considered to be a BFF by more than just one person.

and wOw!!!hahas its kinda true though....=)

被爱伤害的我再也不可以相信爱了。。。

You must be lyk WOW to see me typing this emo type of chinese phrase right??hahas...of coz its not written by me but by a very poor thing china friend of mine....he's lyk so poor thing...ok this is how his story goes:::

He actually likes this particular china girl from his class,he eventually confessed to her and i dunno why he was like rejected but not rejected.He fell in love wif this gal bcoz they're in the same project work group and of coz he asked her to be wif him...guess wad the gal said???[its totallly ridiculous!she said if their project work succeeds then she'll agree to be wif him loh....UNBELIEVABLE right???so this friend of mine is lyk totally disappointed wif his used to be A* gurl.poor guy...