Honestly, I think I've never felt so awkward and so affected before. Great. :-S

A confession to make.

After so long, I'm back to my blog (temporarily; ignoring the previous post on that was extremely childish, immature, retarded and stupid dispute =.= ). Okay, I've officially screwed up my common test, so i won't mention further on that. I've gotta admit that i'm really really affected by what i heard the other day but you know, it cant be controlled. As much as i wanna ignore it and just move on in life, i can't. So yeah.. It has been long since i've ever felt like this so i guess it kinda shows its significance. Oh well, time to deal with it Vanessa. :)

TOTALLY BEING A NICE GIRL HERE.

Okay, majority equals to lyk 14 outta 24? Plus what makes you think the other 3 can make more constructive comments when the arguments you guys had werent exactly strong enough? Btw, yongshin didnt even say a single thing just now. So look who's talking. If it makes you feel better, i wasnt part of the majority so say lyk FOUR people didnt attend just now from the majority, makes a lot of diff huh?.

Something's wrong.. Like REAL wrong..

But i don't know why and since when it went wrong.

:((((

Just when you thought things would get worse, it FINALLY got better! :))))

Somehow I enjoy your company no more.

Once again I'm saying this, I HATE AND YES ITS A HATE AA(or mayb some of you call it AS,wadeva.) PEOPLE.

I think i've never felt so uncomfortable before.

This is bothering me MUCH more than i expected it to.

Shit. Embarrassed TO THE MAX!!!

:(((((((((((((((((

Undergoing a roller coaster of emotions these days.

I don't know why.

Things get really outta hand at times and when I try to bring it back or salvage the situation, I can never satisfy everybody.

Therefore, I Give Up! :DD

I just realised i really really really HATE AA peeps.

Yes, its a HATE.

Why is it so difficult for people to SPEAK UP???

Why cant people just be more observant and know if they are welcomed or not???

Why are there just so many THICK SKINNED people???

Why some people simply do not have the common sense to think before they speak???

Argh. I just realised how irritating it can be to MURMUR.

It has been a bad week except for tuesday...

Okay, its been extremely long since i've last updated my blog about my life.

Apparently, YOG is ultra F.U.N.

Disclaimer: Not purely because of all the athletes(guys AND girls) but mainly because i have a AWESOME yog volunteer team!! :DDDD

Okay, my duty area is situated at Marina Bay-Canoe/Kayak and Rowing!
Basically, my duty is to usher the spectators in the grand stand area or deal with the tickets at the entrance. And, obviously the grand stand duty is MUCH MUCH MUCH better!! :DDD

But, fair ppl like us did alternate duties with the guys so as to be fair to them although we don't really like it either :PPP

Anyways, i'm too lazy to carry on elaborating but one thing's for sure, I'm looking forward to the Univeral Studio celebration on the 17th September!! :DDD

P.S. I'm feeling weird...

STUDIES!

One word, BAD.

Should i put the blame to YOG or just my poor time management??

Totally screwed up the maths and econs test this week. Like REAL bad. I'm not joking. I literally DO NOT KNOW how to do the test..Plainly bombing. I'm serious.

I'm still living in the YOG aftermath, so maybe give me a couple more days and i'll settle down. I promise!
Furthermore, i MUST study for promos like now?! If i'm still procrastinating and not progressing, i guess i might really retain...My worst fear-Econs...It totally doesn't make sense outta me!!! I dont get the whole macroeconomics and the rationale behind it!! I swear i tried reading the notes a couple of weeks back but it simply doesn't work!! Oh no!!!

VANESSA'S IN DEEP SHIT.

As usual, self-motivation works!!!

Everything's cool, there's still one more month left for promos!! I can do it!! Its 'merely' around one subject per week!! I can totally do it!!! :DDD

YOU CAN DO IT!

OMG!

If a guy brings me to Da Paolo, i seriously will marry him!!! :DDDDDD

Hahahahaha!!

I miss those times when i stayed up late till 1am on weekdays to WATCH DRAMAS, not like staying up till 1am on weekdays to RUSH THROUGH REVISION now...

G.R.O.S.S.

I seriously think it is the doing of JC.

I am extremely tired like almost everyday?!?! Okay, i think it is the doing of PW... It is really hard to meet the teacher's requirements and sit down to do the WR properly =.=

It really isnt easy okay. Sometimes i just feel like giving up but like please judging from everyone, who else will be willing to take over such shitty role...Esp when i'm in such a segregated society, how to make sure that i am objective everytime? Please, i also have my personal opinions and judgement of certain people, so it is impossible for me not to judge anyone.
Sian 死了!!!

'NO DAY IS SO BAD IT CANT BE FIXED WITH A NAP' - Carrie Snow

Therefore, I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW! :D

Okay! Made my blog not private alrdy...
I dont understand what's wrong with blogger! I alrdy checked the check box to rmb my email and password so that when i wanna view my own blog i dont have to sign in again..& yet the blogger just dont wanna rmb!! And it is SUPER troublesome whenever i wanna go into my blog to listen to my playlist =.=

Oh well, publicising my blog means omitting certain details (which i already did) :P

I went for YOG outdoor training on sunday!! hahaha!! It was SIAN initially!! Okay..Put it this way, the duty part is SIAN. Hahas, but god knows when this betty tongue twister started appearing while we were waiting for the next rehearsal after lunch..& according to Jes, she said it broke the ice btw everybody..lOls!! Hahas! & i am Betty Ho!! Thanks to Mathew..hahahas!!

Listen carefully!!! :DDD
BETTY BOUGHT A BUTTER BUT THE BUTTER WAS BITTER, SO BETTY BOUGHT A BETTER BUTTER TO MAKE THE BITTER BUTTER BETTER!!
Surprisingly, sucha simple tongue twister entertained us for at least the remaining half of the day!! Hahaha!! There were several versions created too!! LOLS!! Funny ttm!! :DDD

Okay, that's all for now! :DDDD

Okay, i don't know why but i've suddenly lost motivation to do anything again. Is it because of my change of cca?? Is it really affecting me that much? I think it is true to a certain extent that when you dont exercise, your brain will not be able to function at its optimum level. Apparently, i've yet to do differentiation tutorial, complete chemical equilibrium tutorial and physics g-force tutorial. Plus the extra practice of thermal physics which mr tan already finished going through, i havent complete!! OMG right?!? Where's the old Vanessa that does everything punctually???

The traits of a slacker :
1. Not completing tutorials on time
2. Skipping cca when i feel like it
3. Skipping lectures!! (OMG factor!)
4. Not doing revision when promos' round the corner
5. Spacing out during lessons and got caught =.=

Apparently, that's all that i can think of. But, these are already enough to bring me down if comparing with the old me...Take for instance now, I still have my GP mindmap and physics tutorial to be completed by tmr and here i am blogging =.= What's with me huh?!?! Something must be going wrong somewhere!!!

Alright, i may not be having the best of my life now and i'm just enjoying it at an average level, i will make the best outta it. Please, this is VANESSA right?!?!

OMG! I gotta say this!! Joshua was ultimately funny in class today!!! I seriously think he has some mental problem...His act during PE was...E.P.I.C. Seriously, everybody was just stunned...even Mr Yap laughed at him!! HAHAHA!! Once again, i know i laugh till damn loud and uncontrollably. Pardon me! :PPP

Sigh. There's this YOG volunteer service coming up!! And it is in between now and promos!! How am i to cope?!? I can feel the stress building up in me as it is getting nearer and nearer... I hope i can balance things well....I don't wanna fail my promos and get retain..That's the greatest fear of all you noe!!! :(((( BUT! I can foresee that the YOG event is gonna be extremely FUN!! With all my MG peeps!! I seriously think i'm better off with my MG peeps rather than my classmates...Not that my classmates arent fun but my MG mates are people that i can further my relationship with..As in like we will hang out tgt after curriculum as compared to S20, after school everybody goes their separate ways =.= TOTALLY miss those fun times we had during MG Orientation!! Swear to organise another outing soon!!

P.S. Pardon me for all these wordy posts... :PPP I guess this is what happens when one's blog is made private because time will be reduced in glamourising the posts :PPP

Oh Great. I just realised this blogskin doesn't have an archive =.=

Today's chinese oral WAS...Average... I'm predicting another Merit grade..Tsk! Irritated..This time my convo was okay but passage was ULTRA tough!!! omg..i stuttered lyk nobody's business can!!! =(((((

I'm seriously too exhausted recently already..Update SOON!! :DDD

Well, i've been really busy playing and entertaining my cousins from USA these few weeks..Today's gonna be the last week..quite sad though :((((

Hmmm guess i'll update more once my life is back to normal and once i'm feeling much more refreshed!! :DDDD

Now i've quit touch rugby and i know i am slightly regretting it because i still love the game..But rather than making myself feeling lyk an outsider and sufferring in the cca due to human relations, why not stop it and try another one?..You may say i'm avoiding,but what for make myself suffer right? It is not like i had not try..i tried for 6 months but to no avail..So yeah that's my decision! :)
Hopefully, with lesser time spent on my cca and more free time for myself, i am able to be more focused in my studies bah..

Look on the bright side Vanessa! Study hard now and get good results for As and thn head on to university and enjoy life then again! I know this was what i said to myself when i was heading on to JC and it kinda didnt succeed,but i believe i can!
Well, to console myself, at least there's still my family to support me! And of course several close friends i've made in JC and definitely my beloved sec sch mates!! :DDDD
Not quantity but quality :)

Vanessa suddenly feels like travelling around the world alone (:

God has seen you struggling, God says it's over.

:DDD

S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y.

Household chores aint a joke. When you have no clue about how to wash clothes!use the washing machine!what soap/detergent is for what use!use the iron!what clothes nidda iron upside down!

Like WHAT IS ALL THESE!??!?!?!?

It seriously sucks when i'm the only one capable of communicating with the new maid at home during the day but when i'm totally incapable of a single household chore, i cant teach her a single thing!!! And she cant seem to understand what i'm trying to say!! Or sometimes i dont even know what i'm talking about!! Please!! Who will know how many clothes you're supposed to put inside the washing machine!!! OMG..Someone SAVE me!!!!!

Sometimes studying seems MUCH easier than doing all these stuff!!!!!!!!!

UPDATING!!!

June hols started!! And yupps i've yet to start my revision + homework ++++ A LOT of things!!!
Time to start!!!Next week...hehes :P

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
VANESSA GORT A ME (low) FOR HER EoM!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

After lyk all the low AE coming in again and again for my PI..i finally see a M!!! SUPER DUPER HAPPY!!! Hahahas!!
But sad thing is mr ching's leaving??..till now i'm not sure if its true but think its 70% true bah
:((((

HONGKONG IS SUPER DUPER F.U.N.
I cannot emphasise enough!!! its really very fun!!!
Okay..mayb my fun is misleading..coz it only consists of eat.sleep.SHOP! but its total fun for me alrdy!!! Hehhes!!!

Erm...kinda happy with my life now!! coz till now its lyk i dunnit to study!! (although i noe i need to =.= ) & watching dramas till late night/early morning!!! & enjoying my life ttm!!!!
OMG!!! 这就是我要的无忧无虑生活!!!! :DDDDDD




LASTLY....


Why is it easier to affirm “something’s wrong” than to say “everything’s great?”

Isn’t it strange for us to say, “I’m lazy. I’m fat. I’m no good,” thereby creating our life experience to be one that is late, tired, and worthless. Leave it to our egos to keep us in that small game and hold us back. If you haven’t started yet, I invite you take on affirmations that brighten your day. Create a bigger life for yourself simple by saying things like, “I am tireless, perfect being. I have access to everything and I am complete.”

---Jason Mraz! :DDD

我要移民!!!!!!!!!!

If only there wasnt an invention of sucha word --- SAD. Right???
If 'SAD' didnt even exists, everyone in the world would be HAPPY!!!

O.M.G.

It is time to find some public transport HOME!!!
Just ended training and i had to WALK home on my own!! :(((((
AND!I walked the long cut coz my friends sae the void deck route not safe =.=
omg...how?!?!? i dunno wads the most practical way to go home besides walking home!!!
Take LRT?! lyk walk one whole long path and just to get to phoenix lrt station and thn lyk two stops i'll reach home?! and thn still nidda walk from keat hong =.=
BUS leh?!?! take bus to lotone and thn take another bus back to my house =.= displacement you noe?!?
Hahas!! Pekcek lah!!!!
Best of the BEST solution : Ask my parents to fetch me!!! :PPPPP

P.S. THE WEATHER'S SUPER HOT THESE DAYS!! GLOBAL WARMING'S EATING US!!! HUMANS!! PLEASE DO YOUR PART!!!!

HELLO!!! I'm updating AGAIN!! :DDDD


Hahas!!! I CAN PREDICT THAT THIS WEEK IS GONNA BE A SUPER HAPPY WEEK!!
Think i gotta start believing in 'start in well and it will end well' kinda quote..hahas!! Mayb coz i started off my sunday SUPER well..thn subsequently the rest of my week (at least til now) everything's going COOLIO!!! :DDDD


Yeaps! hahas!! went C.R.A.Z.Y. with the 7 of them on monday during lunch break..hahas!! Had F.U.N. imitating one another's actions and laughing lyk lunatics in lecture hall!! hahahaha!!!
And!! Had EVEN MORE fun on tuesday laughing at weiyang's action and in GP tutorial!!! LOLS!! Til now, i'm not sure wad he was doing except a lil dance here and there on the seat!! hahahaha!!! Sucha joke! :PPP PLUS!!! just caught Ip Man II at lotone today!! I personally find the movie very nice!! hehehes and it will be MUCH MUCH MUCH nicer if it was in cantonese...Sucha waste right?!?!hahaha!! coz i had NO cca so i suggested to go watch ip man coz nobody's home to pei me go watch :((( hahahs! though only 5 went it was still quite fun lahh :PPP hahahs!!
P.S. I seriously think singaporeans shld 检讨检讨! Lyk please!! You're watching a movie right?! And isnt it lyk COMMON SENSE for you to turn your phone to silent mode and GO OUT and answer if you have a phone call?!? Not talk lyk nobody's business in theatre during the movie right?!?! OMG...inconsiderate ppl..doesnt mean we're in a neighbourhood cinema at lotone thn you all can behave lyk tt?!?!? Think this can be a GP issue alrdy..hahas!! :DDD



Hmmm i think thats all i gotta say..hehes!!
CANT WAIT FOR MY PARENTS TO BE BACK ON SUNDAY!!!!
CANT WAIT FOR MY HONGKONG TRIP!!!!
CANT WAIT! CANT WAIT! CANT WAIT!!!!!




Hahas!! Totally L.O.V.E my expression in this pic!! hahas think i give her this expression lyk 3/4 of the time lah!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!

Muahahaha!!!! ITS RAINING!!!

SUPER DUPER HAPPY today!!!! ****for no reasons****

Btw, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to ALL moms on earth!!!! :DDDD

Though my mum's out with my dad in china now having the time of their life and not celebrating with us, i still LOVE them!!! :DDD

Oh!!! Think i'm super duper happy coz its the first time my brother drove me out!!!! Seriously, he drove the car with me sitting at the side and we went to meet my aunt~!!!

And my aunt said, rmb last time i still have to go to your house and pick you guys up to go out thn it became to you guys taking mrt down to meet me thn now! Your korkor driving you out to meet me!!! OMG!!! Its kinda happy but sad...Happy coz its really SUUPPEERR cool!!! Sad coz we've really all grown up..)))):

hahas!! When will it be my turn to drive them around?! Hahas!!! W.A.I.T. is the word :PPP

OH.I HAVE NO REASON WHY MY ENGLISH IS LIKE THAT BAD?! I LITERALLY HAVE ERRORS IN ALL MY STATEMENTS!!! O.M.G. I GOTTA DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!!!!

AND!! I've decided to watch bai quan again asap!!! hahahas!! was 'browsing' thru the tv on friday night and saw my FAVOURITE scene showing in channel U so i was SOO tempted to go and watch it again!!! the super duper shuai wen sheng hao~~~!!!!!

Hehes!!!

Had a F.U.N. weekend!!!! Initially i thought i will be bored to death coz my parents arent home and my brother's gonna be back only on sunday morning...BUT! My beloved aunt 'babysit' me!!! hahahas!!! Sat morn after the super fail Captain's Ball inter-house games i had lunch with grandparents and initially planned to do a lil homework but ended up sleeping =.=

Then!!! Went over to my aunt's clubhouse in Sentosa OneDegree15 for dinner!!! :DDDD We swam there and played with my waterproof camera for a while..and thn showered in the SUPER cool changing room before heading down for dinner!! hehehes!!! Then today spent some time with her again!!! Hehes!!! L.O.V.E. it!!! :DDDD

P.S. saw a lot of caucasians :PPPP

FOR ALL SAD HUMANS OUT THERE---STAY HAPPY!!!
HAPPINESS IS THE KEY TO LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!! :DDDDD