What's supposed to happen in my life right now?

Okay, i've gotta admit that after i started looking at (mayb slight stalking) siwei's blog recently, i gort the feel to blog again. Hehehe! But erm, i just wanna 'talk' you see, so dont expect much. LOLS


Recently, i realised i.can.be.quite.mean.at.times. But you gotta understand that it can't be controlled right?!
P.S. I gort a SERIOUS weakness when it comes to pronounciation errors....I am definitely not very good at my pronounciation either, but its just that i find it damn funny when ppl make mistakes. I mean lyk, if i made the same mistake myself, i'll also laugh at myself! :DDDD hahahah!!! So, I sincerely apologise to all those ppl that i've once laughed at... :SSS


So, W.O.W. A levels in like 33days??? That's VERY fast actually...I somehow think i'm pretty ready alrdy but obviously my marks arent showing it. Okay, mayb my definition of ready is lyk 'at least i wont be entering in with a blank mind'. Ohwell, study harder Vanessa! Change your thinking!!! 'IT.IS.NOT.OKAY.IF.I.DONT.DO.WELL.FOR.A.LEVELS' 
Sometimes, it is just REALLY hard to understand why people place so much emphasise on how important A levels is? Right?!?! Okay, our ultimate aim is to get into a university since we chose this JC path right? So, what if we screwed up a levels? Bad results = Cannot get into a university? Okay, after hearing a lot of stories, i came to a conclusion that money matters are almost everybody's concern here. Maybe i do not know enough, but not enough money = cannot go into local uni = ??? Really? I think it is more like maybe the route will be tougher but definitely not the end. Why not try taking the tougher route sometimes right? Alright, i admit i may not want to go through the poly route and face the fact that i've wasted two years in my jc life but i am okay with it......i just need time to slowly digest this disgusting fact. So, Fret not guys!! Just give our best in this crazydisgustingstupidrubbish a levels and see how it will lead us on when we get our results back! 


Errr TOO LONG A POST. Ending it. Hahahha! 


Goodnight! :DDD

OKAY... Let's see, April was the last time i updated this blog. What has changed from April till September in my life?

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A.L.O.T.

Too lazy to talk about what has changed.

Erm, Siwei asked me to update and i am updating but its been too long, i forgotten how blogging is done... :SSSS

Hmmmm, pretty much things happened today and ermm dont really feel lyk mentioning it but think everything's gonna be fine coz come on, it's VANESSA right! There's gotta be a reason for me to be me!! *if you get what i mean* :)))

Oh well, A levels is coming and yeapp NOT.MUCH.TIME.LEFT. but i believe that there will be enough for me to change things! :)))

EVEN IF I GORT THREE Us, I CAN STILL GET MY THREE As! ----- This is what i learnt today! :DDD

When loneliness struck me...

I mean like it is not up to me to really choose how i'm born with right, some people arent just that proactive and if you dont try to approach me how will you noe? Plus, i think all guys are real superficial =.=

Hmmm, i'll say that it may be true that hormones are raging at our age and sometimes we may be desperate, but what's wrong with being a lil' more mature? I mean yeah i may not be as fun and as approachable or say as pretty as the others, but for goodness sake, you guys arent anywhere better? And i agree that life is really pretty tough in JC, but how do you deal with awkward moments, like SERIOUSLY?!

Arghhh whatever, totally feel like saying, 'I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.'

No more DRAMAS.

No more LAPTOP.

No more FACEBOOK.

All these will take effect ASAP :)

Honestly, I think I've never felt so awkward and so affected before. Great. :-S

A confession to make.

After so long, I'm back to my blog (temporarily; ignoring the previous post on that was extremely childish, immature, retarded and stupid dispute =.= ). Okay, I've officially screwed up my common test, so i won't mention further on that. I've gotta admit that i'm really really affected by what i heard the other day but you know, it cant be controlled. As much as i wanna ignore it and just move on in life, i can't. So yeah.. It has been long since i've ever felt like this so i guess it kinda shows its significance. Oh well, time to deal with it Vanessa. :)

TOTALLY BEING A NICE GIRL HERE.

Okay, majority equals to lyk 14 outta 24? Plus what makes you think the other 3 can make more constructive comments when the arguments you guys had werent exactly strong enough? Btw, yongshin didnt even say a single thing just now. So look who's talking. If it makes you feel better, i wasnt part of the majority so say lyk FOUR people didnt attend just now from the majority, makes a lot of diff huh?.

Something's wrong.. Like REAL wrong..

But i don't know why and since when it went wrong.

:((((

Just when you thought things would get worse, it FINALLY got better! :))))

Somehow I enjoy your company no more.

Once again I'm saying this, I HATE AND YES ITS A HATE AA(or mayb some of you call it AS,wadeva.) PEOPLE.

I think i've never felt so uncomfortable before.

This is bothering me MUCH more than i expected it to.

Shit. Embarrassed TO THE MAX!!!

:(((((((((((((((((

Undergoing a roller coaster of emotions these days.

I don't know why.

Things get really outta hand at times and when I try to bring it back or salvage the situation, I can never satisfy everybody.

Therefore, I Give Up! :DD

I just realised i really really really HATE AA peeps.

Yes, its a HATE.

Why is it so difficult for people to SPEAK UP???

Why cant people just be more observant and know if they are welcomed or not???

Why are there just so many THICK SKINNED people???

Why some people simply do not have the common sense to think before they speak???

Argh. I just realised how irritating it can be to MURMUR.

It has been a bad week except for tuesday...

Okay, its been extremely long since i've last updated my blog about my life.

Apparently, YOG is ultra F.U.N.

Disclaimer: Not purely because of all the athletes(guys AND girls) but mainly because i have a AWESOME yog volunteer team!! :DDDD

Okay, my duty area is situated at Marina Bay-Canoe/Kayak and Rowing!
Basically, my duty is to usher the spectators in the grand stand area or deal with the tickets at the entrance. And, obviously the grand stand duty is MUCH MUCH MUCH better!! :DDD

But, fair ppl like us did alternate duties with the guys so as to be fair to them although we don't really like it either :PPP

Anyways, i'm too lazy to carry on elaborating but one thing's for sure, I'm looking forward to the Univeral Studio celebration on the 17th September!! :DDD

P.S. I'm feeling weird...

STUDIES!

One word, BAD.

Should i put the blame to YOG or just my poor time management??

Totally screwed up the maths and econs test this week. Like REAL bad. I'm not joking. I literally DO NOT KNOW how to do the test..Plainly bombing. I'm serious.

I'm still living in the YOG aftermath, so maybe give me a couple more days and i'll settle down. I promise!
Furthermore, i MUST study for promos like now?! If i'm still procrastinating and not progressing, i guess i might really retain...My worst fear-Econs...It totally doesn't make sense outta me!!! I dont get the whole macroeconomics and the rationale behind it!! I swear i tried reading the notes a couple of weeks back but it simply doesn't work!! Oh no!!!

VANESSA'S IN DEEP SHIT.

As usual, self-motivation works!!!

Everything's cool, there's still one more month left for promos!! I can do it!! Its 'merely' around one subject per week!! I can totally do it!!! :DDD

YOU CAN DO IT!

OMG!

If a guy brings me to Da Paolo, i seriously will marry him!!! :DDDDDD

Hahahahaha!!

I miss those times when i stayed up late till 1am on weekdays to WATCH DRAMAS, not like staying up till 1am on weekdays to RUSH THROUGH REVISION now...

G.R.O.S.S.

I seriously think it is the doing of JC.

I am extremely tired like almost everyday?!?! Okay, i think it is the doing of PW... It is really hard to meet the teacher's requirements and sit down to do the WR properly =.=

It really isnt easy okay. Sometimes i just feel like giving up but like please judging from everyone, who else will be willing to take over such shitty role...Esp when i'm in such a segregated society, how to make sure that i am objective everytime? Please, i also have my personal opinions and judgement of certain people, so it is impossible for me not to judge anyone.
Sian 死了!!!

'NO DAY IS SO BAD IT CANT BE FIXED WITH A NAP' - Carrie Snow

Therefore, I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW! :D

Okay! Made my blog not private alrdy...
I dont understand what's wrong with blogger! I alrdy checked the check box to rmb my email and password so that when i wanna view my own blog i dont have to sign in again..& yet the blogger just dont wanna rmb!! And it is SUPER troublesome whenever i wanna go into my blog to listen to my playlist =.=

Oh well, publicising my blog means omitting certain details (which i already did) :P

I went for YOG outdoor training on sunday!! hahaha!! It was SIAN initially!! Okay..Put it this way, the duty part is SIAN. Hahas, but god knows when this betty tongue twister started appearing while we were waiting for the next rehearsal after lunch..& according to Jes, she said it broke the ice btw everybody..lOls!! Hahas! & i am Betty Ho!! Thanks to Mathew..hahahas!!

Listen carefully!!! :DDD
BETTY BOUGHT A BUTTER BUT THE BUTTER WAS BITTER, SO BETTY BOUGHT A BETTER BUTTER TO MAKE THE BITTER BUTTER BETTER!!
Surprisingly, sucha simple tongue twister entertained us for at least the remaining half of the day!! Hahaha!! There were several versions created too!! LOLS!! Funny ttm!! :DDD

Okay, that's all for now! :DDDD

Okay, i don't know why but i've suddenly lost motivation to do anything again. Is it because of my change of cca?? Is it really affecting me that much? I think it is true to a certain extent that when you dont exercise, your brain will not be able to function at its optimum level. Apparently, i've yet to do differentiation tutorial, complete chemical equilibrium tutorial and physics g-force tutorial. Plus the extra practice of thermal physics which mr tan already finished going through, i havent complete!! OMG right?!? Where's the old Vanessa that does everything punctually???

The traits of a slacker :
1. Not completing tutorials on time
2. Skipping cca when i feel like it
3. Skipping lectures!! (OMG factor!)
4. Not doing revision when promos' round the corner
5. Spacing out during lessons and got caught =.=

Apparently, that's all that i can think of. But, these are already enough to bring me down if comparing with the old me...Take for instance now, I still have my GP mindmap and physics tutorial to be completed by tmr and here i am blogging =.= What's with me huh?!?! Something must be going wrong somewhere!!!

Alright, i may not be having the best of my life now and i'm just enjoying it at an average level, i will make the best outta it. Please, this is VANESSA right?!?!

OMG! I gotta say this!! Joshua was ultimately funny in class today!!! I seriously think he has some mental problem...His act during PE was...E.P.I.C. Seriously, everybody was just stunned...even Mr Yap laughed at him!! HAHAHA!! Once again, i know i laugh till damn loud and uncontrollably. Pardon me! :PPP

Sigh. There's this YOG volunteer service coming up!! And it is in between now and promos!! How am i to cope?!? I can feel the stress building up in me as it is getting nearer and nearer... I hope i can balance things well....I don't wanna fail my promos and get retain..That's the greatest fear of all you noe!!! :(((( BUT! I can foresee that the YOG event is gonna be extremely FUN!! With all my MG peeps!! I seriously think i'm better off with my MG peeps rather than my classmates...Not that my classmates arent fun but my MG mates are people that i can further my relationship with..As in like we will hang out tgt after curriculum as compared to S20, after school everybody goes their separate ways =.= TOTALLY miss those fun times we had during MG Orientation!! Swear to organise another outing soon!!

P.S. Pardon me for all these wordy posts... :PPP I guess this is what happens when one's blog is made private because time will be reduced in glamourising the posts :PPP

Oh Great. I just realised this blogskin doesn't have an archive =.=

Today's chinese oral WAS...Average... I'm predicting another Merit grade..Tsk! Irritated..This time my convo was okay but passage was ULTRA tough!!! omg..i stuttered lyk nobody's business can!!! =(((((

I'm seriously too exhausted recently already..Update SOON!! :DDD

Well, i've been really busy playing and entertaining my cousins from USA these few weeks..Today's gonna be the last week..quite sad though :((((

Hmmm guess i'll update more once my life is back to normal and once i'm feeling much more refreshed!! :DDDD

Now i've quit touch rugby and i know i am slightly regretting it because i still love the game..But rather than making myself feeling lyk an outsider and sufferring in the cca due to human relations, why not stop it and try another one?..You may say i'm avoiding,but what for make myself suffer right? It is not like i had not try..i tried for 6 months but to no avail..So yeah that's my decision! :)
Hopefully, with lesser time spent on my cca and more free time for myself, i am able to be more focused in my studies bah..

Look on the bright side Vanessa! Study hard now and get good results for As and thn head on to university and enjoy life then again! I know this was what i said to myself when i was heading on to JC and it kinda didnt succeed,but i believe i can!
Well, to console myself, at least there's still my family to support me! And of course several close friends i've made in JC and definitely my beloved sec sch mates!! :DDDD
Not quantity but quality :)

Vanessa suddenly feels like travelling around the world alone (:

God has seen you struggling, God says it's over.

:DDD

S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y.

Household chores aint a joke. When you have no clue about how to wash clothes!use the washing machine!what soap/detergent is for what use!use the iron!what clothes nidda iron upside down!

Like WHAT IS ALL THESE!??!?!?!?

It seriously sucks when i'm the only one capable of communicating with the new maid at home during the day but when i'm totally incapable of a single household chore, i cant teach her a single thing!!! And she cant seem to understand what i'm trying to say!! Or sometimes i dont even know what i'm talking about!! Please!! Who will know how many clothes you're supposed to put inside the washing machine!!! OMG..Someone SAVE me!!!!!

Sometimes studying seems MUCH easier than doing all these stuff!!!!!!!!!

UPDATING!!!

June hols started!! And yupps i've yet to start my revision + homework ++++ A LOT of things!!!
Time to start!!!Next week...hehes :P

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
VANESSA GORT A ME (low) FOR HER EoM!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

After lyk all the low AE coming in again and again for my PI..i finally see a M!!! SUPER DUPER HAPPY!!! Hahahas!!
But sad thing is mr ching's leaving??..till now i'm not sure if its true but think its 70% true bah
:((((

HONGKONG IS SUPER DUPER F.U.N.
I cannot emphasise enough!!! its really very fun!!!
Okay..mayb my fun is misleading..coz it only consists of eat.sleep.SHOP! but its total fun for me alrdy!!! Hehhes!!!

Erm...kinda happy with my life now!! coz till now its lyk i dunnit to study!! (although i noe i need to =.= ) & watching dramas till late night/early morning!!! & enjoying my life ttm!!!!
OMG!!! 这就是我要的无忧无虑生活!!!! :DDDDDD




LASTLY....


Why is it easier to affirm “something’s wrong” than to say “everything’s great?”

Isn’t it strange for us to say, “I’m lazy. I’m fat. I’m no good,” thereby creating our life experience to be one that is late, tired, and worthless. Leave it to our egos to keep us in that small game and hold us back. If you haven’t started yet, I invite you take on affirmations that brighten your day. Create a bigger life for yourself simple by saying things like, “I am tireless, perfect being. I have access to everything and I am complete.”

---Jason Mraz! :DDD